"Today started out ok, then I got up"

(Title is a quote from Freaky Friday, don't know if I got it right but close enough)

Ugh. I am surprised this hasn’t happened earlier but here it is, a pissed off angsty blog post. O, won’t this be fun?

Angsty isn’t a word? FUCK YOU SPELLCHECK! That’s the kind of mood I’m in at the moment. Fun, aren’t I? So yea, people pissed me off this morning, put me in a bad mood, which of course meant that anything anyone said made me want to freak out on them. So in this mood I got pissed off at my friend, she kind of deserved it but I still felt guilty, but not guilty enough to apologize which made the whole thing worse because I was guilty and pissed off at the same time, then my mom comes and asks me if I am ok, to which I made some deflection about being tired. If I were to say no, I am pissed off, I wouldn’t hear the end of it, so it is always just easier to deflect though now she probably thinks I have some screwed up sleeping disorder because I am always tired. That’s probably true because I am killing my body staying up ‘till 1am every freaking night, but I don’t have the self control or even the desire to actually sleep. What the hell am I even talking about? This is why people like me should not have blogs. I am going to go punch something and hope nobody tries to talk to me, I may freak out on them.

My day just keeps on getting better and better. Last time I was really frustrated I went down to the punching bag and couldn’t find the gloves, so I went at it with my bear hands. Not a good idea. I took some skin off of my right knuckle, and now, 2 weeks later it is still all nasty and keeps on opening up again. So when I went down to take out my angstyness on (FUCK YOU! ANGSTYNESS IS SO A WORD!) the punching bag, but had enough sense  not to use my right hand, so I threw a right elbow instead. Well doesn’t my fist smash into the metal pole beside me, opening up my knuckle and making it bleed. O fun, there is blood on my laptop now.

Well this has been a fun start to the march break. It’s barely noon. Great

Well I am going to sign off and see if I can somehow pull myself out of this hole I am in. I should probably start with apologizing.
Until whenever I decide to write another random post,

-MAESTRO